My name is DJ Jarak. I am probably one of the most loyal and honest people are you likely to meet in your lifetime. I’m also one of the most sensitive. I have this annoying need for everyone to like and understand me, even though I know this is an impossible wish. Still, I do what I can to make it come true. I try to think and feel like others and explain things logically so we can find some common ground. The only way for two people to understand each other is to meet somewhere in the middle. If you expect everyone to step all the way over to your side short of brainwashing, understanding is not going to happen. It just isn’t. Believe me, I’ve tried. It just doesn’t work.
I’m an Aspie. This is what those of us with Asperger’s Syndrome call ourselves. It is a form of high-functioning autism. The symptoms of this are generally hyper-sensitivity, an extremely logical way of thinking, incapability of perceiving dishonesty, social/emotional ineptitudes, physical clumsiness, multi-tasking limitations and obsessive-compulsive behaviors. Aspie’s tend to focus on a single task and quickly master it beyond the range of any single neuro-typical mind (“normal” people). However, this means anything else tends to be beyond their ability or very difficult to process. If you tell an Aspie to draw you a picture when drawing is their primary interest, that picture will most likely wind up in an art gallery. If you ask that same Aspie to put the dishes away, mistakes will be made despite the task being a generally simple one. It’s not a matter of laziness. It’s just how our brains are wired. There is no treatment and there is no cure. Only extreme concentration and focus can allow a typical Aspie to be perceived as “normal”. We are often seen as anti-social and arrogant, but that isn’t by choice. As we cannot read (pick up on subtle signals) people like neuro-typicals read each other, we generally can’t and don’t trust them. The hyper-sensitivity also often requires isolation. It has been known to cause severe headaches, anxiety, and emotional outbursts. This is why I like to keep busy. The more I work, the more I can drown out the world and ignore the pain and anxiety caused by my hyper-sensitivity. While most Aspie’s tend to shy away from social interaction, I keep pushing myself. As my interests tend to be more in the range of model photography and art, being around people is a necessity. Due to my condition, being around people can be extremely difficult. People tend to perceive me incorrectly. They see me as weird and creepy. When I get comfortable around someone, I tend to follow them around until they introduce me to someone else and I get comfortable with them as well. This is just how I cope in the “real” world. Otherwise, I’d never leave the house. Unless I am asked to leave or provide some space, I will continue doing what I have been. I don’t pick up on signals. Unless you tell me how you’re feeling, I just won’t know. Because of my non-typical behavior, people have been very cruel to me and continue to be. They just don’t understand. Many don’t care to understand. They just want to be cruel in order to make themselves feel more superior. This is something Aspie’s just can’t comprehend. There are those within and outside of the Aspie community who have this theory that Asperger’s Syndrome is not actually a disability, but a form of evolution. While we lack certain social graces, we are honest and loyal to a fault. Also, the majority of those with this condition have achieved between highly intelligent to genius level IQ scores. What does the world need now more than ever? Honesty, loyalty and intelligence without the baggage of gossip, lies and cruelty. You must ask yourselves, what kind of a world do we live in when someone with logic and a good heart are considered to be an abomination? The next thing you know, we’ll be lead into mutant registration camps like in X-Men.
As I stated earlier, my primary interest is model photography and art, but I’m also a graphic designer, but do many other things as well; mainly computer based things as computers are logical and I can trust them to be true to their nature. I am a highly skilled freelance Windows based operating system technician and search engine optimizer. These skills have been very valuable as far as keeping my computer in perfect working order and making sure my websites are easily found by search engines such as Google and Yahoo. Recently, I started acting. My first few roles were as an extra, but I’ve had a few supporting roles as well. I also have a few starring roles coming up and have been toying with the concept of making my own film. Check out my IMDB page. I currently have 2 producers fighting over the right to make my movie. It’s very exciting. It’s called Reascension. It’s an epic martial arts film about a sorrowful Lucifer fighting his way back into Heaven so he can find God and apologize for all he has done. It’s being made with an Earthly perspective. Heaven as a beautiful suburban area, Hell as urban decay, and Purgatory shot all in black and white. I have armies of film makers and actors who want to be involved. The only thing holding me back is money. I have none to spend on the production of a film. I don’t even have enough to live on. Due to my condition, I can’t work in a typical work environment. I can’t work around people I don’t know or trust to be honest with me. This is why I do most of my important business online. All communication is in the form of text. This leaves no room for people expecting me to recognize physical cues. Even so, I still have trouble. I am a master at my trade, but I still have difficulty dealing with people. This is why I seek the services of an agent. However, agents tend to only help those who make enough on their own that they don’t need an agent at all… and that really sucks. Here are a few more things to know about me. I’m a huge geek. I have been long before it was the cool thing to be. Star Trek, Star Wars, Doctor Who, Babylon 5, Battlestar Galactica, Buffy the Vampire Slayer (the series, not the terrible film), DC and Marvel Comics, Supernatural… I love it. Quiz me. I dare you. Another thing about me that many seem to find odd is, I find muscular women to be attractive. Skinny girls just never did it for me. Not the steroid cases, but the ones who look like Barbie if she was a bodybuilder. Off-season is best. That’s when they still have their feminine curves. The lean and veiney look is just… disturbing. As for guys (yes, I like guys too) I tend to go for fellow geeks and artistic types. Someone I can go to Comic Con with.
Well, that’s me. If there is anything else you’d like to know about me, just ask.