Nothing has gone according to plan since getting to New York City. I had a ride come pick me up from Penn Station, but I had no idea which exit to use. There are about 6 of them. I finally was able to meet up with him at the Madison Square Garden one. He showed me around the area before taking me to J.P. Clarke’s for lunch, where I ordered the Lobster Macaroni & Cheese. So delicious. Then we went back to his place so I can do my job of teaching him how to use Photoshop. He is a great student. He can now retouch skin very as well as cutout backgrounds. After dropping me off at the subway station, I took the one line to another and that to another. By the time I got to the hostel I’m staying at, my arms felt like they were going to fall off. I brought a bag full of clothes with wheels, but my computer bag, which also has my camera in it, has no wheels. When you own a 17” Alienware desktop, it’s no lightweight bag. So, I had no idea what to expect. The room I was supposed to stay in only had a top bunk left and no way for someone my size to get into it. Everyone was using a table, but there is no way it could support my weight. When the people upstairs found this out, they invited me to move my mattress up to their space. They are such a great and interesting bunch of people. We have 2 people from Russia, a fellow photographer from France, a kid from Thailand studying to become a dentist, and an flamboyant career film and television extra with a substance abuse problem, but it only adds to his charm. I have no plans for today or tomorrow, but I do have plans to go for Indian food with a friend and I have a shoot with a cirque goth model on Tuesday. On Wednesday, I return home.


So, many of you are confused by the new Thor. So I was I, at first.. before I knew the while story. I didn’t see the point of changing Thor into a woman. Many people think that’s what happened, but no, It’s not another one of those things where they’re just trying to curry favor with someone other than white male geeks and nerds by screwing up a classic character instead of simply creating another. She’s not actually Thor, but has simply taken his name. You see, Thor has been around for so long that his his name has become bigger and more legendary than the man himself, so now that she’s in possession of his hammer and powers, she is now Thor: The God of Thunder. He is still Thor the man, but now she is Thor the god. Get it now? Good. Still, the mythology of Thor is many thousands of year old, so what gives Marvel the right to change his gender? Marvel has been butchering it since the beginning, so why should this be any different?


Despite the growing number of unemployed, high-tech certified Americans, Bill Gates is in the process of terminating 18,000 of Microsoft’s current employees in order to implement a new unlimited guest worker visa policy, which will allow MS to hire non-US citizens for extended periods of time. Not cool. Very not cool.


Remember butterbear, that drink Harry Potter and his friends always favored ordering from Hogsmeade? I used to think it was one of those concoctions only common in the UK, like jelly babies. Well, as it turns out, it’s fiction… or it was. Thanks to some help from J.K. Rowling, there is now a recipe to make it and it sounds damn delicious… and fattening.

Combine condensed milk, butterscotch topping, and butter in a glass measuring cup. Heat it in the microwave for 1 minute. Remove and stir it until butter has melted and incorporated into the mixture. Meanwhile, heat cream soda in another heatproof measuring cup for 1 minute and 30 seconds. Divide butterscotch mixture between 2 (10 to 12-ounce) mugs. Fill the mugs with heated cream soda and stir thoroughly.

I can’t wait to try this stuff, become addicted to it, get diabetes, slowly lose the use of my body parts, and then die with a smile.



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Now that I’m out as trans female, I’m going for the look. I’m continuing to lose weight, I’ve started shaving every day, and I’m going to see a doctor about hormone therapy, but before I start the medical stuff, I’m going SHOPPING! I’m thinking Torrid. They’ve got some great, casual stuff there so I can start with some baby steps. I also found a really cute wig that looks totally real and it’s not expensive.


Holy crap, I think I just destroyed my pants!



There is a big difference between a modeling directory and a talent agency. If you are promoting yourself as an agency, you better have the paperwork to back it up. In order to run an agency, there is state or province licensing which must be taken care of and paid in full. Without it, you are running an illegal organization. Such organizations have been known to be shut down, and those behind them sued and charged with fraud, even if money never entered into things. Please, don’t be a fool. Talents, if an agency ever asks you to join, first ask to see their agency license. Not their business license or company registration. Their agency license. They are not all the same thing.


For any of you who think me stupid due to my social awkwardness, I am about to explain the science behind Mjölnir, Thor’s hammer. I have not copied this or used the notes of another to compile this theory. It is based upon my own observations alone. Okay, here we go.

Mjölnir (Pro: M-Yole-Near), is an ionic energy battery, capable of expelling surplus energy. It is also a self-sufficient gravity-field generator.

Ionic Energy Battery

Ions are the atomic charges responsible for creating and carrying lighting. As a battery, it has the ability to absorb and store ions and use them to generate large amounts of electricity in the form of lightning bolts and energy fields, which can either impact or protect. The hand grip insulates it from the hand of the wielder. Direct physical contact with such energy could seriously harm even an Asgardian.

Gravity-Field Generator

The reason Mjölnir can only be wielded by Thor is because it’s keyed to his DNA. When someone else tries to lift it, it increases its own center of gravity to assure it cannot be moved, even a single unit of space, giving it the appearance of infinite weight. In the film, when he could no longer lift it, it no longer recognized Thor as it’s owner. He might as well have been a small child trying to move the world. This gravity-field is also which allows the hammer to come to Thor upon command and allows Thor to achieve flight.

Despite the strong mythical undertones of Mjölnir, theoretically, it could possibly be created. The science is sound. All we lack is a metal capable of retaining such power without over-heating and melting. Such a metal might have to be artificially created. Also, the cost would be potentially astronomical.

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